I watched a man kill himself today.

My mother and I went on a search for the Honeybaked Ham store about 3 hours ago. Google Maps gave us these weird directions to an address that doesn't exist. So we went and got some lunch and got new directions. At about 1:30 ish we head out to go to the actual address of a place that does exist.

We are on the highway, not a major freeway. Just a state highway, we are talking and listening to Brand New.

I was looking down at the directions and my mom swerves really hard to the right. I look up to see what the hell she was doing. And there is a large Ford cargo van that is going around 80 MPH swerving between cars and nearly clipping every single car on the road. He then pulls a hard left and goes into the median, he rolls the van into oncoming traffic, hitting a few cars and flipping another.

This happened literally 100 feet in front of our car. He nearly rear ended us, and because of a very literal divine miracle my mom decided to look into her rear view mirror. We stop the car, so does everyone else. My mom pulls out her phone and through her tears tells a 911 operator what happened. We drive past the wreck, and there is a flipped over Subaru. Completely on it's back, with everything smashed and somebody stuck inside. A little further the van is on it's side smashed to bits. The man that was driving the van had been flung from his vehicle and was laying on his stomach, not moving, covered in blood. He was obviously dead, nobody could have survived that.

This man was trying to kill himself. He succeeded, along with possibly killing at least 1 other person.

I watched a man kill himself and somebody else today. I don't feel well. I am not going to feel well for a while.

***UPDATE***I just watched the news. The man who was driving the van is alive along with everyone he hit. He was rushed to Swedish Medical Center, which is literally 100 feet walk from my house. If I knew his name, I would tell them I am his cousin and walk into his room and spit in his face. If he was trying to kill himself, he did it in the most selfish way possible. I still don't feel well, but I am now also angry. HE LITERALLY WAS INCHES FROM HITTING OUR CAR AND ABOUT 10 OTHERS. He was selfish, if you want to kill yourself do it in your home, shoot yourself, drink bleach, i don't care. But don't risk other peoples lives because you are too pathetic to live yours.

Menopause

I seriously think my mom is going through the change. Today she decides to be really bitchy and mean, and when I say anything to her, she calls me an asshole and leaves. It finally came to ahead earlier tonight when I (jokingly) said to her that she should let me use her health insurance so I can get surgery on my sinuses.

She flips out and yells at me again and grabs my computer by the cables that are plugged into it, which wouldn't have been a problem if just the magsafe was plugged in, but I also had an ethernet cable plugged in. This seems to be her favorite thing to do now, because earlier she threatened to break my computer, and I told her she would owe me money since I payed for this whole computer myself. And she said that I would have to take her to court, because she wouldn't pay me a dime.

This is the latest I've stayed up in more than 2 weeks. And I think it's partially because the "It's Always Sunny..." season finale was on at 11:00. But it's most likely because I can't stop thinking about how insane this is. And knowing that it is going to be just as bad tomorrow.

I hope it's not. And I still can't breathe.

nothing really

this is basically just something that fills up the space, that is my first post on here...check back for important stuff

Things I Need

A badass job.
To save money to move home.
A larger hard drive, i guess 60 GB isn't sufficent even for now.
A wireless router.(A Time Capsule would solve this and the one above)
A hard copy of Leopard, so when I get this new HD, I have an OS to install on it.
GarageBand, for some reason I have every other iLife program but that one...
My license.
An even more badass job.


this was pointless, but thats what blogs are for...

Dumb Lyrics

Cut it off at the knees.
The streets will run...
with the stench of your disease.
I've turned my head one too many times.

I won't settle anymore.
I won't let your filth invade my life.
You know what you've done...
and now it's time you taste your defeat.

THIS TIME IT'S YOUR HEAD!

I'm no longer tolerant.
You have no right to be pointing fingers.

By the end of this...
you will have leaped down from your pedestal.
You know what you've done...
and now it's time you taste your defeat.

NO MORE IS IT YOU OR ME!